[Lupe Fiasco - Bitch Bad]

Latest one from Lupe Fiasco today, "Bitch Bad" from his album Food and Liquor: The Great American Rap Album Pt.II.
Lupe raps about the concept of a 'bad bitch', and the distorted values of today's society. It's really interesting , the song and video; I was jamming to it, and was still intrigued the whole time, so check it out belo0o0w


Song: 8/10
Video: 9/10

It's funny how today, people talk in like, contradictory compliments. I wonder how that caught on. Like, the farthest I can think back to is when people said "sick" meaning 'cool'. Or now theres "you killed it, murdered that, this person is ill," and i don't even know where "tight" came from or how that even makes sense lol.

Oh and here's the behind the scenes/backstage footage:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=26bzaowOQgo

[EDIT: This song/video isn't brand new, I just didn't know about it till now hahah]

Journal Posts Continued

So today, I had an advanced functions test, and a bio quiz.. Super depressing day that I wasnt exactly looking forward to, and I knew it would end badly.
The night before, err--yesterday night lol, I got home and was like "Okay, I've got all night to study math and bio..lets go!!" BUT I was so tired I could barely stay awake and so I took a nap (smh) and kept napping for four hours, aghh. I woke up around 8:00 pm, took a shower, and then started studying around 8:30. Include dinner and gathering the house trash for trash day the next day (which was today..if you still follow me), then fell asleep again by midnight. Woke up around 3:00-3:10 and got to work again until I had to get ready for school  (6:45), and then left the house (7:25). I studied as much as I could on the bus, and tried to sneak some review in in first period.. but the point is that my study habits kind of really suck. I just cant find myself making any progress at any time. What's the solution to this??
If I work right when I get home, I get distracted because subconsciously I think, 'oh I have so much time', that I dont get any work done really. Maybe like half a question. If I start around 5:00 or 6:00, same thing. How do you focus?!?! Guh, I find myself cramming in my homework at the worst times: midnight and later -_- it aint right yo.
Anyways, so turns out I studied the wrong material for the adv.functions test. I dont even want to face my teacher on monday, thats how bad it was. And then there was bio lol, thats not even worth mentioning ok.
I just can't seem to get it right. I would say I'm gonna try harder to work at it, but I usually don't do the things i plan on doing. At least I don't do them well, if I do end up doing them :S It's like an inner rebellion against all the advice people give me on this, as well as the goals I make for myself. fieifkdgjk /wahh.
Okay whatever. idunno. If I were to describe myself with one word as of late, it would be inconsistent.
Yaa. I guess thats all I have to say. Happy friday still!

We ain't got too far to go before we make it

Hulloooo. So Hi! hahahaa, I havent blogged on the Zoot Pod in so long. It feels..weird. Odd. Peculiar..
Anyways, uuhhmm. In 2 and a half weeks, I'll be joining the high school leagues as a twelth grader (wat!) and shit's going down. My life will be layed down before me, or, will be uprooted. Who knows? Who even knows what I'm saying? Lol cause I don't [insert elipsis]. Uhhh yeah so i guess this is just a post to get back into this thang ageen, lul. Idunno, I did quite a bit this summer but theres a lot of things I still want to do that I can't say cause I dont wanna jinx them, but ya! It's not ova okee. :) :) okey.

lol me as a wee niney. i look the same doe

Change.

This past hour hit me with something. A realization, if you will.

Maybe it's the over-thinking talking, or maybe I'm just facing the normal teenage terror question: "Who am I?". Actually, I shouldn't label this question as a teenager thing, but rather a universal wondering that is faced at all ages.

Damn I sound smart. I didn't notice until now the eloquent half moon goin on outside in the sky. Floating, hovering, shining bright & beautifully. It's fucking marvelous. --And yes, I had to add in the F word in there, because that literally is what the moon looks like right now.

Anyways, back to the topic, I was reading through the February 2009 posts on hurr, and maan was I ever witty! Like, I was actually decent at blogging. I don't know about now--I think I've lost almost all credibility when the Pod turned into like--diary entries, and venting; this included. /The moon's hiding.

So basically just the simple act of reading and reminiscing (RR), that somehow catapulted me into thinking, that I've lost myself. Or have I just changed? I mean, a year or two ago, I was 10 pounds lighter, had blunt bangs & a center part, wore no makeup, and had my own individual style. I had passions. Photoshop, photography, web design, reading, blogging, snowboarding, making musc, film, fashion, dance... and now? Now, those passions are merely interests. It's--sad. Where did my passions dissolve away too, huh? Like, what haaappened to me.

I remember, when I had small little dreams of becoming a music/fashion/personal (basically mixed media) blog with an audience of hundreds. Hahaaah, I had like one follower at the time and it was my sister. Or when I would learn all the kpop dances & me/tiff/sham actually got up off our lazy asses and did a dance for Youth4Youth and it was definitely one of the best experiences of the year. You see.. remarkable things like that. Where did they go maayyn! Like shit, I used to make films. Well, short little videos for assignments at school, but one summer me&erin made a Lady Gaga music video.. I never edited it though, but I still have the raw footage. I wanted to start a Youtube channel with my friends, and it would've documented our average daily lives. Or when I took up learning piano and I almost played at my Gr.8 graduation ceremony, but then realized I sucked. But it was okay. I was ambitious. I saved about $200 to buy a DSLR camera a few years ago.. never happened, but y'know.. I tried. I actually made pretty sick banners & edits on Photoshop and shit. Idunnooo. I mean, who's to say I can't still do those things, right? I think I might have to take up all those things again. But what sucks is that when I say I'm gonna do something.. I usually end up not doing it. Hmmph.

So how did I get here then..? I have always been a lazy person, but probably what happened is just that lazy blob pulled me under its wing, and the rest took care of itself from there. I'm so tumblr-influenced, and waahh kind of lost my individuality in there.

Then again, maybe I'm not worsening, I'm just uhh, evolving. I'm just more hiphop and less hipster. I listen to a lot of rap, and I dress kind of street-influenced. I know more about dance styles, and I do crosswords now.

...Actually, it's pretty hard to think of the positve aspects in this situation. I don't really like this new me as much. Don't get me wrong--I think my personality has stayed relatively the same, but my attitude is completely different.. I should get to steppin all of this. :)

Peace, fellow Zoot Podders <3

2011: I don't wanna make empty promises here, but, I think I'm back :D

I know you like, whatever. But don't be like whateveeer.

I hellaaaaaa, hella hella helllaaaa miss blogger. (L)
Sorry for the... 4 month hiatus.. err.. not really hiatus, seeing as I basically flopped for tumblr. Anywayss, it's le time to rant.

Is it lame that I only hang out once a weekend..?
Half the time, I even spend the weekend by myself?

Idk.. I was fine with it really. But then while eating brunch today.. a comment my sister made really got to me. She noted that she talks to my one friend more than I do. I simply explained that I don't really text her, or anybody for that matter, cause I only get 250 texts a month so I dont like to waste them..
Not a very valid excuse for drifting apart from someone who was originally just my friend then became more one with my sister. Anyhow. Although it was an uncomfortable conversation, I was still decenetly fine. But then, my sister remarked, "this is why you're a loner."

Then shit hit the floor. I got up and smacked her with all my might--
Nawwh, I'm jokes. But.. still. That hurt.

I then had the sudden urge to hang oout with someone, just to prove I wasn't a loner.
I called Martha, but she didn't pick up..
I guess you could classify me as a loner.

Another thing that got to me was when I was camming with my friend on msn today, and they asked what I was doing today, and I said, "nothing.. chilling.. homework" and they jokingly said, "is that all you do.. homework?" and at the time I was fine, I was like, "yeaah maang."

But now I'm all like effing overthinking & depressed.
"Screw you guys, I hate high school" -guy from She's The Man
Hahaa, that quote explains my lifee.

But then again, what's wrong with being a loner?
Loners can be cool. Like.. Emma Stone in Easy A.. she spent the whole weekend singing to Pocketful of Sunshine, and she was pree damn cool.

I dunnoooo, I guess in the whole grand scheme of things, it really doesn't matter how booming your social life is. Just be yourself and have confidence, and life will turn out fine. Or so I hope.

On an even bigger scale, if you think about it, complaining about shit like this is utterly pointless. The situation could be a whole fucking lot worse. There are kids who are bullied, who have broken families, who are starving, abused, dying in the world. And here I am, whining about only hanging out once a faackin weekend. And okay, I'll give you the fact that it is a long weekend.. but honestly. Who gives a flying shit.

An now I shall end off with one of my favourite quotes; "You're too blessed to be stressed." -Swizz Beats.

I miss my bestfriend.

I’ve been her BFF for… 5 years now. And she ditched meeee ;( I really really, reaaallllyyy miss her! I feel like she hates me.

Isn’t it sad how my ‘bestfriend’ never texts me except for homework, and this kid I barely know texts me everyday? Daaamn, what happened? Shit, I need to get her back LOL.

While I’m on the topic.. it really bugs me (grinds my gears! :D) when girls be like, ‘I miss my bestfriend’ who’s not really their bestfriend. It’s just some guy they had strong feelings for, and told them everything cause they thought the guy was trustworthy and the girl thought they could fall in love, or some shit. stfu. You’re not bestfriends. Get over it.

watch you watching me, i go all ouuuut

Ugh, I got a runny nose. *Sniffle*sniffle*.

School starts in a week. Actually less than a week... 5 days. Blehhhh..
I've actually never wanted summer-to-not-end this much in my lifeee.
In english class, we read this poem that conveyed us as humans always eager for the future. Like for example, "I can't wait for next Friday!" or "I just want to grow up, and live my own life." or "one more hour..."
and I suppose that's true for the most part.
But I found myself wanting to stay in this state foreverrrr. Hahaha, maybe not forever, but atleast 2 more months pweasee?

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^ sorry, the rentals were irritating me and i was being an angsty teen.

ANYWAY. I decided I should have a different outlook on school. On the bright side.. TV shows will be starting again! Aaand.. what else? New classes = new people = new experiences = FRESSH :D
Also I really want to work harder this year. But i dunno, usually I have a good intuition at the start of something big like a new year, or a new month, or something. This new school year, I'm not getting exactly the best hunches right now..
So I'm a little worried.. maybe I just need to try to pull myself out of summer mode.
Ohmygawsh. I JUST remembered.. uniforms.
Ohmygawwsh. I also was just reminded.. I'm a tenth grader. Shiiit, it feels like just last year I was Gr. 7 or something, and Mr. Evans was assigning something he took from another teacher like he always does D:
KAY. POSITIVE ATTITUDE. RIGGHT STELL?
riiight..
ugh. fck this. school go away. i dont want you here and that's just the truth. i cant lie to myself anymore, i'm really sad and, kind of mad .. ?

CAMP ROCK 2 YOU BETTER CHEER ME UP MAYN. OR IMMA FCK SOMETHIN UPPP, BITCH.

PS. Twitter's being a shitty whore. faaaack. why am i so maaaad right nowwwwwww.